this is not a fucking thinspo site.

llamallamanewt: canyousonicme: melodyoswinpond: She will be...

Mon, 20 May 2013 22:40:32 -0400

canyousonicme:

melodyoswinpond:

She will be amazing.

River Song’s timeline (so far), in pictures.

I’m really glad someone figured this out and put it in order. =)

So that was the first episode of Doctor Who in a long while that I thought was actually good. And it...

Sun, 19 May 2013 02:41:05 -0400

So that was the first episode of Doctor Who in a long while that I thought was actually good. And it was the first episode since the gasmask child where I was scared! I paused the episode to grab my bedspread so I could hide under it. Aaaaah! (Little known fact: blankets are good protection against monsters; they just cannot get through blankets.) I can’t believe I have to wait until NOVEMBER for more!

TW: stupid eating disordered bullshit below the read more. don’t bother. i maybe...

Sun, 19 May 2013 02:28:38 -0400

TW: stupid eating disordered bullshit below the read more. don’t bother.

i maybe accidentallyonpurpose didn’t eat most of my snack tonight. oops. it’s disappointing that i am an adult and cannot be trusted to eat on my own. i was sitting in the car with my dad and my sister, but it was dark and i was in the back seat and they weren’t really watching me at all, so i just… i realized i could get away with it, i took a bite or two more as i debated whether or not to finish eating… and then i decided not to finish. so i didn’t. and now it’s 1am and i’m still awake and i’m hungry and wow i am a complete doofus.

Honest Question

Sun, 19 May 2013 01:02:43 -0400

prancingunicorns:

How does one get an “urge” to restrict? When I think of “urge” I think of an impulsive drive that compels you to perform an act within a moment without having time to stop oneself. I have urges to binge, I have urges to purge, and I can understand how someone could have an urge to exercise. But I really don’t understand having an urge to restrict because restricting is more like a lack of an action. I totally get being triggered to not eat btw.

I think one gets an urge to restrict in much the same way that one gets any other ED urges. For me, the thought comes into my head that I want to restrict, and I act on it in various ways.

Regarding the “lack of an action,” urges to restrict can involve things other than “just not eating.” For me, it could be throwing out the food I’m supposed to be eating (this often involves the impulsivity that I think you’re referring to), or eating an inadequate amount of food at meal/snack time (this can also be impulsive / an “in-the-moment” decision). But I think of restricting as acting an urge even if it’s not an immediate/impulsive act. So even if I sit around not eating for an extended period of time, and have plenty of time to turn things around, I’m still acting on an urge to restrict.

Sorry that that was such a long explanation. I hope it helps, though!

I went bowling today with my dad and sister, and I’m not kidding, I seriously scored 19 points...

Mon, 13 May 2013 22:41:20 -0400

I went bowling today with my dad and sister, and I’m not kidding, I seriously scored 19 points in the entire second game. I started off the game by getting four zeros in a row. A person in a coma could have done just as well.

My other sister pointed out that if we’d been playing a game like golf, where the aim is to get a low score, then my score would have been good. But we weren’t, so I really just sucked. I had fun, though, and I want to go again!

taliaitscoldoutside: Lavender was my #1 crush in this movie...

Mon, 13 May 2013 22:37:44 -0400

taliaitscoldoutside:

Lavender was my #1 crush in this movie when I was a little one because she wore cute dresses, had glasses like my grandma, and she was the ACTUAL hero because she fought Trunchbull with NO powers.

Lavender is awesome. I named my second American Girl doll Lavender because of her. (Also, I was just watching this movie! I love Matilda.)

So after 14+ years of obsessive-compulsive tendencies, I’ve reached the point where I’ll...

Mon, 13 May 2013 01:10:23 -0400

So after 14+ years of obsessive-compulsive tendencies, I’ve reached the point where I’ll frequently do compulsions without really understanding why I’m doing them. I don’t know why, but I just have to do these random behaviors over and over again until I get them “right.” I don’t even try to fight it anymore.

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Sun, 12 May 2013 23:30:10 -0400

A family friend (our former nanny) came over this evening to visit and celebrate Mother’s Day...

Sun, 12 May 2013 23:13:32 -0400

A family friend (our former nanny) came over this evening to visit and celebrate Mother’s Day with us. We exchanged gifts, and she told us the story of how she came to the United States and started working for my parents. I’d never heard the whole story before, but oh my God, it was horrible. I cannot even imagine going through what she did; I feel so sad and awful just from hearing about it. I feel sad that she had to go through that, and that anyone has to go through that. But knowing what she had to go through to stay in the US makes me even more grateful to have her in my life. She’s been a real blessing in my life, and has been like a second mother to me.

Also, she told us how her 8-year-old granddaughter secretly took her 12/13-year-old brother’s credit/debit card and spent $250 online, all by herself! You’ve got to admit, that’s pretty impressive and clever for an 8-year-old to figure all that out by herself. But I bet their mother feels pretty silly now for getting the 8th grader a bank account and a credit/debit card.

goldenheartedrose: girljanitor: goldenheartedrose: joanthededu...

Sat, 11 May 2013 23:39:07 -0400

goldenheartedrose:

girljanitor:

goldenheartedrose:

joanthedeductionist:

allisticntprivilege:

fyeahpdp:

Privilege Denying Dude:
[Picture: Background: 8 piece pie style color split with red and teal alternating. Foreground: White guy with glasses and light shadow wearing a sweat shirt over a button down and short black hair. Has a smug, arrogant facial expression and crossed arms.
Top text: “ [People with learning disabilities] ” Bottom text: “ [should be paid less than minimum wage] ”]

I don’t think this needs a trigger warning but unfortunatly,this is a political view here in England. http://www.communitycare.co.uk/blogs/adult-care-blog/2011/06/tory-mp-let-disabled-work-below-minimum-wage-to-gain-jobs.html I’m not even joking, I wish I was. The link contains the “logic” behind this including quotes from the original claims made by a conservative MP (our prime minister is conservative) that people, like myself, are “less productive” and therefore should be paid less in order to “help us”.

I don’t think I even need to point out everything that is wrong with this, the exploitation that will result is apparent even to my less productive brain.

SO:

This is a UK story, and what is called learning disabilities in the UK covers at least intellectual disability and possibly some other disabilities in the USA.

This exists in the USA already in the form of sheltered workshops and has for years.

Also the bolded.

this is terrifying and disgusting wow

Yep. I really am surprised more people don’t know or care. Like, great, boycott the Salvation Army because they’re cissexist and heterosexist. Yes, do! But don’t you dare say Goodwill is a good company/ a good alternative when they pay disabled workers just PENNIES per hour. Don’t you fucking DARE.

To clarify:

It has been legal to pay people with disabilities subminimum wages since the passage of the Fair Labor Standards Act (FLSA) in 1938. Specifically, for more than seventy years Section 14(c) of the FLSA has allowed the secretary of labor to grant special wage certificates to entities that provide employment to workers with disabilities, permitting them to pay their disabled workers at rates that are lower than the federal minimum wage and excluding people with disabilities from the workforce protection of the federal minimum wage enjoyed by all other Americans.

And yes, this includes people with Autism, anxiety disorders, physical disabilities, and cognitive/developmental disorders:

Employed in a publicly funded sheltered workshop in Beaverton, Ore., Paula Lane has earned as little as 40 cents an hour. Lane, who has autism and an anxiety disorder, works with 100 other people with mental and physical disabilities.

Sheltered workshops hire people with disabilities to do simple labor, such as folding bags, packaging gloves, and shredding paper. The only nondisabled people the workers interact with are staff and managers. Their jobs don’t offer training for advancement, and environments can be noisy, crowded, and hazardous.

While promoted as stepping stones to mainstream employment, these ghettoized workplaces are often nothing more than sweatshops. The National Disability Rights Network (NDRN) published a scathing critique, called “Segregated and Exploited: the Failure of the Disability Service System to Provide Quality Work.” The report said that these job sites “have replaced institutions in many states as the new warehousing system,” one that “keeps people with disabilities in the shadows.”

Reblogging for more information.

If I continue ignoring you, will you stop texting me inspirational quotes?

Wed, 08 May 2013 20:18:06 -0400

If I continue ignoring you, will you stop texting me inspirational quotes?

Watson: Do you close yourself off to people and deny yourself things that might bring you pleasure not because it makes you a better investigator, but because it's some sort of penance?

Wed, 08 May 2013 14:29:22 -0400

Watson: Do you close yourself off to people and deny yourself things that might bring you pleasure not because it makes you a better investigator, but because it's some sort of penance?
Sherlock: Penance?
Watson: For what happened in London, being addicted. I don't know, I guess it just occurred to me that it might be something that someone might do and not even know it.
Sherlock: You always know it, Watson. If you didn't, it wouldn't be penance.

I am not as funny as I think I am.

Wed, 08 May 2013 02:14:19 -0400

I am not as funny as I think I am.

A few reasons why the Girl Scouts of the USA are super rad:

Tue, 07 May 2013 20:21:17 -0400

jackpowerx:

americaforward:

GSUSA provide comprehensive sex education for young girls, something they’ve been under fire for from conservative media in recent years who claim Girl Scouts are “inappropriate activities”. On the contrary, GSUSA educate girls on HIV health, family planning, and safe sex.

They openly accept trans youth. “If a child lives life as a girl and the family brings the child to us to participate in Girl Scouts, Girl Scouts of Colorado welcomes her. Girl Scouts of Colorado respects the privacy of all girls and families we work with. When a family requests membership for their daughter, we do not require proof of gender, we respect the decisions of families.”

Girl Scouts of the USA nationally advocates LGBTQ rights by “featuring prominent LGBT rights activists as role models at Girl Scout events, in Girl Scout materials, and by referring girls to websites that aggressively promote special LGBT rights.”

Extremely environmentally conscience, Girl Scouts Forever Green does too much to list just click the link holy smokes(!!)

These girls are being given the tools to survive and thrive in a patriarchal society - leadership, confidence, entrepreneurship, and so on, or as right-winged news media likes to call it, “radical feminism”. But you know what? If the Girl Scouts of the USA are a radical organization, then maybe radical is what we need. -A

“Radical” is establishment-speak for “Doesn’t play along”

As if anyone needed proof that Girl Scouts > Boy Scouts.

I am a proud, Silver and Gold Award-earning, lifetime member of an “inappropriate” “radical feminist” organization. BE VERY AFRAID.

I went to the printing studio today (the place where I get prints made of my art), and talked to the...

Tue, 07 May 2013 20:16:40 -0400

I went to the printing studio today (the place where I get prints made of my art), and talked to the guy who owns the studio / makes my prints. I like going there because he usually has good suggestions and ideas on how to move forward in my art “career.”

Today, I showed him two of my portfolios, full of art he hadn’t seen before. He said that my art is like a “treasure trove” and that I’ve built up an “impressive” portfolio. It was definitely nice to be validated in that way. And a woman was there when I arrived, working on getting her first prints made. We talked for a while, and she showed me her art. She said that she thought she recognized me from my picture on the printing studio’s website, that she really likes my art, and that it’s “happy” (this is the opposite of what I usually hear). She also asked me if I’ve ever thought about illustrating a children’s book (several minutes after my dad encouraged me to write and illustrate a children’s book). So now I’m considering it again.

The printer’s idea for the day was to make a 2-7 minute mini documentary-type thing about me and my art. He said he can pitch the idea to his son, who has apparently impressive credentials and has been looking for a project. He thought that telling my “story” along with pictures of my art would be a good way to promote my art. I told him it sounded like a good idea, but I think he’s giving me time to think it over, which I will surely do (along with discussing it with my therapist).

i’m pretty stupid sometimes. i’ve had a headache on and off since early this morning,...

Mon, 06 May 2013 01:23:37 -0400

i’m pretty stupid sometimes.

i’ve had a headache on and off since early this morning, and i’ve been putting off taking a second dose of my headache meds for 4+ hours now as some sort of perverse form of punishment.

i’m fantasizing about hitting my head with a heavy blunt object to relieve the pain, but something tells me it wouldn’t work.

I’m trying to write again. I haven’t written much since I graduated from university in...

Sun, 05 May 2013 18:25:42 -0400

I’m trying to write again. I haven’t written much since I graduated from university in 2010. Nothing I ever write (other than papers for school) has ever seen the light of day, but I have to keep writing. Art and writing are the only ways anything ever makes sense to me.

glittertitties: so the “damn boy” tank comes in other styles...

Thu, 02 May 2013 23:44:32 -0400

glittertitties:

so the “damn boy” tank comes in other styles and colours and I really want this one omg

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Tue, 30 Apr 2013 13:33:18 -0400

There’s nothing quite like being an intelligent person who performs the same mindless task...

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 00:58:32 -0400

There’s nothing quite like being an intelligent person who performs the same mindless task over and over in a desperate attempt to prevent something completely unrelated but unspeakably horrible from occurring.